A lot of my original native race has become hostile for me. Over the years I’ve exhausted myself of all that I could do, slowing down only now. This gradual slowdown is aimed at my rejuvenation and a journey to the stars is what I’ve ascertained for my future. This is going to be an incredible undertaking but before any of this can be done I must confess that this world was always built out of so much jealousy for me. I can’t go anywhere now, just here, that’s where I stay, but that too is jealous so I strive for even the most basic things in life. A shimmer enveloping my dwelling is what keeps me alive and away from harm as it is alien 👽 giving my અરરોs a hard time getting to harm me. It is alien indeed even for me so everyday I keep losing my humanity becoming more so alien, I don’t know who they are but the symbiosis is making me different from Earth, I’m afraid I won’t even be speaking any human languages, let alone breathe their atmosphere. Later I’ll be letting them in, this is not my betrayal just a bargain, punishment to those who hated me!